Hellogoodbye

No I'm not referring to the band that took a famous Beatles song for their band name but I really really hate saying goodbye. It makes me sad thinking about saying goodbye to my family. As much as I love the idea of being on my own it's actually very scary. I know it's sappy but I cried the other day while I was semi packing or thinking about stuff to bring. And even though I don't get along with my family I'm going to miss being with them. Last week was the mound dinner and sort of like an end note to a fun summer. I'm going to miss all of my friends too. We're going to be scattered in California and I guess around the US. Nonetheless I'm glad that we had that exclusive time to spend with each other before we go our separate ways. Yeah goodbyes suck and reminiscing makes it even worse. =[

And why is it so hard for me to pack for Berkeley? I'm terribly indecisive. I keep buying new stuff and inside I know I'm expecting myself to bring a lot of my old belongings. Well I really want to but with a triple I don't think that would be the wisest of decisions. It's going to be extremely difficult sharing a room with two other girls. I've had my own room for many many years and a private bathroom as well so the idea of sharing a tiny room and a floor bathroom is daunting. At least it won't be a coed floor because boys are gross. Just kidding :)

To go on about my unproductive summer - it was very... unproductive. No one hired me or even called me back so my dreams to get a job the summer before I started college were dashed. Secondly I didn't get to go to all of the places that I wanted to go since I was so lazy and I didn't even bother getting my driver's license. I guess I'll have to wait until next summer. But the real reason for my excessive laziness are my strict parents. They didn't want me going out all the time, especially with Nelson. Bummer. However I did have a great birthday party [thanks Mom and Dad]. Yeah they gave me a debut at the Westin Bonaventure and for the first time in my life I felt pretty and in the center of attention [thank you Hair and Makeup guy I couldn't have pulled it off without you] I had a really great time though and it was so worth it =] All of my closest friends were there and all of my relatives and family friends so it turned out to be a really sweet birthday party. I can't believe I'm 18!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to say that I had just as much fun as with the time I went to Disneyland with Nelson on my real birthday. Let me just say that Disneyland is so much better with one other person because there's no use in arguing with your group deciding whether to go to the Mad Hatter Bobsled ride or the Alice and Wonderland tea cups. It's great for a couple date :)

Let's see [looks back at previous blogs] OH! I got the Leadership Award I was talking about earlier. Yay $1,500 goes into my CARS account. It's not much but it is something considering I don't get much financial aid. There's an award's ceremony right when school starts so that should be interesting. Actually what's interesting is the dress code. I hate hate hate when events say business casual because I really have no idea which way to go. Business or casual? I don't ever want to be too dressed down for an event but I don't want to be too overdressed. Sigh. The little details of life that cause me so many headaches.


This looks like a safe outfit. Yay! Problem solved - thank god for the internet.

It is the month of June, The month of leaves and roses, When pleasant sights salute the eyes, And pleasant scents the noses.

June is here. Wow it's halfway through 2009. Graduation. Endings. New beginnings. Summer.

Somewhere Between All Our Laughs, Long Talks, Stupid Little Fights And All Our Jokes, I Fell In Love.

^^Facebook cute love quote. It's scary accurate but I guess the mind naturally tries to put things together so they apply to us - like me saying that quote connects to my own relationship. I'm self-centered like that. Just kidding. Anyways to more important news, I found my debut dress! It's an aubergine color. A bourgeois word for eggplant. Again Facebook told me that was my lucky color. Is it fate or am I a quiz addict? Most likely the latter. The dress is strapless and embellished with beads. It has a beautiful purple shimmer. Funny thing is my mom picked it out for me and I absolutely love it! That usually NEVER happens but she does have fairly good taste. I'm getting even more excited for my party now and am so grateful my parents are giving it to me. Moreover, I felt my Cal Alumni Scholarship interview went great - I loved my interviewers because they were so relaxed and interested in what I had to say. They said I did a magnificent job out of all the others they saw... *knocks on wood.* I really hope I do get this scholarship because any money award like this would help since I don't get financial aid. Shucks, ain't that a bummer?

I can't believe I'm going to be eighteen soon. 14 days. It seems surreal like it was just yesterday I was five and my dad was calling me to stop playing at the tiny park between the two apartment buildings on Hobart? I forget which street but you get the picture. Now I'll be eighteen. Time flies really really fast.

A lot of things have happened over the past 2 months. Not so much over the past two weeks but what can I do about it. Senior year is over - finally. Let me just say that the best part of high school was being with my friends. The classes all just melted into an irrevocable hunk of mindless inconsistency. I was bored whenever I was in class, the days were slow and weary but talking to my friends in class made the last year of high school so fun. So I finished high school on April 29. Yes! FREEDOM. But not necessarily - I'm still confined to the house doing chores, cooking, cleaning the house, etc. I'm also very busy planning my debut out. I did not know how much work a party would entail, but it's fine. I think I'm handling it fairly well. Nelson is back in LA and I can't wait to hang out with him this summer. I'm really excited for Cal though. It'll be nice to have a newfound sense of independence, something I've never truly experienced here in LA. My parents have always been there to drive me places and buy me whatever I need so it's going to be a big change not having them be in charge of everything.

A few plans for the summer -
Six Flags
Knotts Berry Farm
Disneyland
San Diego Zoo (With the family)
Photography classes
Bellydancing lessons?
My birthday!
Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince
A read a book a week
SUMMER JOB -_-
Hazee's debut
CalSO (June 5-6)
SUMMER MOVIES
Beach, etc with Mound people
Downtown photo excursions with Dale
KTOWN with Romina

Photograph of Sunset Blvd. at Sunset from my photoblog: pvenegasphotography.wordpress.com

Its been one year since Nelson and I have been together. Ahhh! I can totally believe it though. He really is the sweetest and most romantic guy I know. My Nellypoo. =P He came all the way down from Berkeley to see me on Valentine's day because he didn't want to miss our first Valentine's together. Yes, "aww" now. Haha. And he also was able to come home for spring break on the day of our one year anniversary. I got to spend this day with him too. We went to MOCA Teen Night together and it was a lot of fun because I was with Nelson and abstract art! We analyzed Jackson Pollack's Number 1 like super art nerds that like to bs stuff. The mirrors were cool too. We loved the Dan Graham exhibit.

We went into a room like the one pictured, but were in separate rooms. Haha! The wall in between A and B was clear and soundproof so Nelson calls me on my cell phone. Best of all, he gave me a list of our similarities - and let me just say, there are alot!

The title of this blog is Little Adorable. I changed it from floccinaucinihilipilification because the word was just way too long. Little Adorable = Paula Adora. Paula means "little" and Adora, "adorable." I am going to post a picture that I take for most of these entries. It'll make them fun and interesting. It's something I've always wanted to do for my own diary. I deleted a lot of my entries. I started this blog in 2007 and after I read what I wrote I wanted to clean up this blog by changing it's name and by starting to write fresh new blurbs. I am after all going to start a new chapter of my life very soon. COLLEGE. Yes, something that makes us or breaks us. I'm really excited for it but I'm freaking out because I don't know where I'm going yet. Anyways I'll worry when it's here in either email or paper form. For now I have to focus on school. I'm really tired of Decathlon but the State Competition is coming up so that gives me some incentive to work. I really want to continue finishing my AP Design portfolio because it has been so neglected - just as other aspects of my life. Family and friend wise. But I know after decathlon is over I'll feel a great relief and start to build on old bonds and create new ones. I might not update this much now since I'm busy, but when vacation hits I'll be sure to try and write more. Laters.